I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Element of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I could be doing this for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems a course in miracles. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to fairly share was not yet clear in those days; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have enable you to see inside. Don’t are interested troubling your mind, won’t you allow it to be?” This confused me as I possibly could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I had in arriving at the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’satisfaction, by just my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief has been (has been?) released.
There are other issues that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.