I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining samples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Section of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I could be doing so for the wrong reason; as a means in order to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to talk about wasn’t yet clear in those days; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have allow you to see inside acim teacher. Don’t are interested troubling the mind, won’t you allow it be?” This confused me as I possibly could not think of anything that I had stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in visiting the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’reassurance, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.
There are other items that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.